The downside to caring about people and letting them into your life and your heart is that some day you know that you will have to let them go. This past week the Secondlife music community had to do just that. We had to face that fact that one of our own, an avid supporter of live music in SL and a friend to so many was no longer with us.
Even if you did not know Garrett (Lutz) Lockjaw personally, chances are that you had seen him at shows. He was a fixture in the live music scene. usually quiet, lurking in the back, keeping to himself. For as quiet as he seemed in the outside he was equally as goofy and wonderful on the inside. I was lucky to have had the honor of calling him my friend. I ask that you bear with me, as this is not something easy for me to write, and frankly, I could go on for pages and pages with the silly escapades and moments he and I shared, so this might get a little messy, but I promise to not let the train of thought derail too often.
Garrett lived his SL the way everyone should, on his own terms. If he wanted to be goofy, he was goofy. If he wanted to be stalkery, he was stalkery. (Note, this is not in the “I will show up at your house at random and I have been watching you kind of stalkery. It was more of an open stalking, and always with the stalkees consent!) He taught me to “give zero f**ks” and to embrace the awesome of SL. Often I would end up places with him in head to toe latex with him suited up as a Ninja Turtle just dancing our little pixels ragged to amazing music.
The fact that Garrett “give zero f**ks” didn’t mean that he did not care. No. He cared tremendously for those that he loved. Need someone to listen to you complain about crazies? He was there. Need a man to try on women’s hair? Just show him where to get the demo! Looking for awesome new musical talent in SL? He probably already found it but would be excited to share the new discovery. Need to know just how a man can birth a baby? Garrett would gladly lead you on a tour of the male pregnancy sim. There were few limits to the link he would go to for his friends.
Garrett was not only a big fan of live music in SL, he also worked with several musicians and was the groundskeeper for a sim that hosts live music. To be honest, I don’t know who all he worked with through his time in SL. I only met him about 2 years ago. I do know that he worked with Phemie Alcott and Caasi Ansar. Later in his SL he managed J Lively and Hunson Abadeer. When I was first starting to manage Funkyfreddy Republic he was there to help me out and give me pointers based on his experiences. Garrett also looked after the Lockjaw family’s sim Elysium City of Templemore. There he was the master of booking live acts and the best damn groundskeeper a place could ask for. When people would thank him there he would reply “I just cut the grass.”
Garrett never asked for anything. He just wanted to be surrounded by people that he cared for and that cared for him. He will never be far from our thoughts and his spirit will live on in SL. Luis Lockjaw has erected a gorgeous statue at Elysium City of Templemore in honor of Garrett and his carefree, loving spirit. There will be a service in memorial of Garrett at the same sim on Monday September 4, 2017 at 12:00pm SLT. All are welcome to come celebrate the life and good times that Garrett brought to SL.
Garrett and I had many memorable conversations. One such conversation centered around songs to dance to when I was a dancer with Guerilla Burlesque. As he and I had very similar tastes in music I was bouncing ideas off of him and mentioned that I had always wanted to figure a way to dance to a song by Ministry but I was struggling with a concept that would not be offensive. Garrett then said something that stuck in my head and planted a seed of inspiration. “How do you dance to ‘Drinking the blood of Jesus, drinking it right from his veins’? Because I need to see that” Several months later I made sure he got to see just how someone could dance to that. I will be performing that act at Guerilla Burlesque this Friday September 1, 2017 at 10:00pm SLT.
I would like to end this, not with a goodbye, but with some words I want to say to Garrett.
Garrett, You know how much you mean to those whose lives you touched. I can speak for no one but myself but I need to tell you thank you. Thank you for you. Thank you for making my SL wonderful. Thank you for “turtling up” when I needed a moment of silly. Thank you for always being honest with me about how things were going, even when I knew you were worried about hurting me. Thank you for letting me have the joy of loving such a precious soul. You still owe me a unicorn ride and according to my kids you are already haunting me and I love it. Nothing will ever take you from my heart. I told you I would hang on even when you could not and I stand by that. I love you, Garrett. ♥ ~Ty